I don’t know have you ever had that feeling. Sometimes I feel like im two persons trapped in one. There are people who seem to know me on one way and other who just seem to know my other half. I wonder, is there really two of me? I know that im capable of building some kind of shield around me, not letting others to see who I really am and how do I really feel and think. But does that shield create other new me that I don’t know about?
In last 2 months my life turned upside down. I lost my home, family, friends, I lost my self. I expected too much from the new start. You can read about it in my last blog. In fact, I ruined my self to the point ive became someone I hated before in me. I got back to my old love, habits I never thought ill see again. Anyway, so far I failed 2 exams. And some other stuff happened. Everyone expect from me that I will be in bad mood. You know what? This sick as I am now, I woke up, danced in pajama, singed to first thing I got in my hand. My roommate was laughing so hard when she saw me. I don’t care. I am in love with life, laugh, love. I know my father is here to pick me up, hold me tight, dry my tears and say; ‘I am here, I love you, don’t worry. ‘
this time it is something short, its 1am and im just too excited to write anything else than this :D
have fun
